Chapter 25

Saturday - March 15, 2003

"I'm beginning to think you hate me" I said to Nick dryly as we walked into our suite after spending the day at the Ruins.

Nick just laughed "why?" he asked

"everything we have done so far down here has friggen included heights Nick! and dont think I was buying it when you were trying to tell me that you had 'no idea' the Ruins were high! Jesus!" I said, sitting down on the couch and putting my feet on the coffee table. Christ, every friggen muscle in my legs hurt!

"I told you I was gonna get you over your fear of heights" Nick said with a laugh, sitting down next to me

"and I told you I like my fear!" I said with a laugh, hitting him on his leg

"you too tired to go out tonight?" he asked me, looking over at me

I groaned, closing my eyes "if it involves heights, yes" I said

Nick chuckled next to me "actually I was thinking maybe we could have dinner then maybe go dancing or something" I just shrugged, not sure if I really wanna go out or not tonight. right now I'm too damn tired to do anything! "kinda like a date"

he said it so fast and so low that I had to actually think about what he just said. once it hit me my eyes flew open "a date" was all I could think to ask, slowly turning my head to look at him

"yeah" he mumbled.

ohmigod. where the hell did this come from? he suddenly wants to date? "but I thought you said it would ruin everything" I muttered.

he just shrugged "I know but ... fuck Kate. I think we both know just being friends aint working. I just ... damn it. I'll try real hard not to fuck up, I mean I know I cant promise not to or anything, but what the fuck. we could at least try, right?" I just continued to stare at him, not even able to say anything right now. he's willing to try dating? Nick frowned at me then looked away from me "you can say no if you want. we dont have to date or whatever. we can just be friends......."

"Nick, yes" I said with a laugh. Jesus, this man can babble when he gets nervous! but I think it's too friggen cute that he's nervous about asking me out! and the color on his cheeks right now, I'm thinking it's more than a sunburn. I think he's actually blushing!

"yeah?" he asked me with a smile.

I just nodded, smiling at him "where we going though? if I have to dress up I'm gonna have to go shopping. all I brought were shorts and t-shirts" I said

Nick leaned over and pulled his wallet out of his back pocket, opening it then handing me his room key "go buy something sexy" he said with a grin

"I can buy my own ......" I said, standing up

Nick just shook his head at me "I know you can. just charge it to the room. you're gonna have to get ready in Ron's room though"

I just looked down at him "what? why?" I asked, confused

"just trust me, ok? I'll call Ron and have him come up here and bring whatever shit you need down to his room. when you get back from shopping just go straight to his room ok?"

"how am I gonna get in?" I asked him

Nick just laughed at me, rolling his eyes "you're gonna wait to leave until Ron comes up here with his room key" he said, pulling out his cell phone and calling Ron "hey man. come up here and bring your room key. Katie's going shopping then she's gonna get ready for tonight in your room .... no. you're gonna be up here with me. but you need to bring her stuff down to your room while she's shopping ..... whatever dude. you're getting paid to be here ..... yeah k. see ya" he laughed then hung up

"he must so hate you sometimes" I said with a laugh

"right. dude fucken loves working for me" Nick said, standing up

"oh, I'm sure." I said, rolling my eyes "so, something sexy. you do know that I have no idea what you might find sexy, right?"

Nick laughed "pretty much anything not slutty" he said

"how much can I spend?" I teased him with a laugh.

"whatever you want baby" he said. I just looked at him. oh, I can so get used to hearing him call me baby! "and dont even think of trying to use your credit card to pay for whatever you buy. I want to buy this for you"

"ok" I said with a small smile as the elevator dinged and Ron came into the room

"at your beck and call" he muttered, coming into the living room

"shut the hell up" Nick said to him with a laugh "hon, go get whatever you need together in one bag and Ron'll take it down for you. do you know how long you'll be?"

I just looked at him "I'm going shopping. for a dress" I said

"oh Jesus. this'll take all day" Ron said with a laugh

"stop" I said to him laughing

"what time is it?" Nick asked

Ron shook his head "time to get a fucken watch kid. it's 5:30"

"2 hours be enough time? meet me back up here at say 8?" Nick asked me

"ok. let me go get some stuff together" I said, going into the bedroom. I have no idea what exactly Nick has planned but I love that he wants to 'surprise' me or whatever. I threw all my bathroom stuff in a bag then grabbed whatever else I think I might need "all set. I'm going to shop. see you at 8" I said to them

"here's my room key. room 1145. just dont mess up the room too much" Ron teased me

"oh please. whatever" I said kiddingly, snatching the key from him "bye"

"hey" Nick called to me as I headed towards the elevator. I turned and looked back at him. "remember. sexy" Nick said with a smirk

I just smiled at him then pushed the code for the elevator and left.

**************

"Jesus." Nick said, staring at me as soon as I stepped off the elevator.

I blushed and smiled at him "is that good" I teased him with a laugh

"fuck yeah" he muttered, looking me up and down with his eyes

I just smiled at him, glad that he likes what I picked out. it's just a simple black dress, but I took the time to do my makeup just right and put my hair up on top of my head (not easy with all this damn hair, believe me!). I looked up at him and noticed him wearing his glasses. Jesus. the man has no idea how fucken sexy he looks in those damn glasses, does he.

"what?" Nick asked, seeing me staring at him

"nothing. I just ..... nothing" I said, embarrassed

he smirked down at me "glasses, eh?" he asked with a cocky grin

I just looked at him. how the hell could he know? "you called Kris" I accused him

he tried to deny it, but he couldn't "damn woman! how the hell did you know?" he asked with a laugh

"I've known you for 6 months now and I have never seen you wear your glasses. then all of a sudden you decide to wear them tonight? yeah right" I said, shaking my head at him with a smile

"maybe my eyes are tired" he tried

"uh-huh. so why'd you call Kris anyways?" I asked him

"none of your business" he said with a laugh, pushing the code for the elevator "but she just happened to mention that I might want to wear my glasses."

"jerk" I teased him with a laugh as the elevator opened. Nick put his hand lightly on the small of my back and led me into the elevator then followed me in. "why are we going up? aren't we on the top floor?" I asked as soon as I felt the elevator move up instead of down as I had expected

"you need to stop asking so many questions and just trust me" was all he said

"fine" I said, sneaking another look at him. Jesus. he looks fucking amazing. he's dressed real simple in khaki colored slacks and a dark blue button up shirt, but he still looks hot. and can I even tell you how blue his eyes look with that shirt? as soon as the elevator doors opened Nick took my hand in his and led us off. "this is the roof" I said, stopping in my tracks. what the hell! I told him no heights!

"yup" he said, trying to pull me

"Nick" I said, not wanting to do this.

he turned and looked at me "Katie. trust me. ok?" he said, looking me in the eyes

I paused then finally nodded, letting him lead me out onto the roof. as we got further onto the roof I saw a pool in the middle of it with a blanket next to it "a pool? I didnt even know they had a pool up here"

"yeah. but no one else is gonna come up here. I rented the roof for the night" Nick said

I just laughed "you rented the roof?" I asked him. Christ. I didnt even know you could do such a thing! I guess money does talk.

"yep" he said, brining me over to the blanket

"awww" I said when I noticed the picnic basket on the blanket "we're having a picnic?"

Nick looked at me and shrugged, actually starting to blush a little "is that okay? we can go out for a fancy dinner. I just didnt think you'd want that. hell, you'd probably just fight me on the price of the meal anyways. but if you want......."

"stop" I said to him, looking at him sternly "this is perfect"

"yeah?" he asked me, not looking sure

"yeah" I said to him, looking around the roof and noticing everything that he must have set up. there are candles lit all around the edge of the roof, there is soft music playing (from where I honestly dont know!) and there are a dozen purple roses sitting in a vase next to the picnic basket "ohmigod" I muttered once it all set in what this is

"figure it out?" he asked me with a smirk. I just stood there stunned "it's your dream date. Kris told me that you always wanted to have a romantic picnic on the beach. I know it's not the beach, but I figured here would be more private"

I turned and just looked up at him. I cant believe he did this for me. "thank you" I said to him softly

he smiled down at me and took my hand in his again "hungry?" he asked

"actually, yeah" I said with a laugh

we sat down and Nick started pulling the food out of the basket. it's just sandwiches, salads and chips with wine - but honestly it's perfect.

we ate dinner the we got up and put out feet in the pool, just sitting there and talking

"if I asked you to do something, would you do it?" Nick asked me suddenly. looking over at me

I raised my eyebrows at him "depends" I said, not knowing what the hell is gonna come out of his mouth

"the view of the city from up here is amazing. I want you to go over to the edge with me and see it" he said, looking over at me

I shook my head "no" was all I said

"Katie, please." he said

"Nick no. the only reason I'm even up here and not freaking out is because I cant see all that much from here. I'm not going to the edge" I said

"nothing's gonna happy baby, I promise. I wont let it"

"why is it so damn important for you to get me over my fear of heights?" I snapped at him. damn it. why the hell does he want to ruin this perfect night by watching me freak out!

"because I dont want you to be afraid of anything" he said, his voice soft

oh Jesus. why does this man have to be so damn sweet and caring! Christ. any reason other than that and I would have still refused. I sighed and just nodded at him.

he gave me a reassuring smile then stood up, taking my hands and helping me up "you can do this hon. nothings gonna happen" he said, gently leading me towards the edge. "just look out at the city. look at how pretty it is up here" Nick continued to talk to me as he gently led me closer and closer to the edge - his hand never leaving mine

"Nick no. I dont want to go any closer" I said, actually starting to shake. I dont know how many floors this hotel has, but I'm thinking way too many at this point.

"I'm right here baby. I'm not gonna let anything bad happen" he said to me gently, running his hand up and down my arm. "just a little closer Kate. then you'll be able to see the whole city"

I tried to take that last step so that I'd be right up against the edge. honest, I did. but I cant. I'm shaking too bad and I feel like my heart is about to jump right out of my chest "I cant. please dont make me do this" I said, turning around and all but running right in to him.

"hey, it's okay" Nick said gently, wrapping his arms around me and holding me. I just shook my head, lowering it so that he cant see me. Christ, can this get any more embarrassing? all he wants to do is show me how pretty the city looks from up here and I go and freak out. he held me for a minute then I felt his hand lift my chin up so that he can see me. he looked down at me for a second then slowly lowered his head to mine, softly covering my lips with his.

Chapter 26

Nick's lips moved slowly over mine, like he's trying to memorize the feel of them. I kissed him back, moving my hand behind his neck and pulling him closer to me. his grip tightened around my waist and he pulled me tighter against him, his tongue sneaking out and tracing my lips real quick. finally the need to breathe overtook our wanting to kiss and we pulled away from each other.

"wow. where'd that come from?" I asked him with a small laugh, smiling up at him

Nick grinned down at me "6 months of build up hon" he said. I just smiled at him, my head still spinning from the kiss. Nick reached up and lightly traced my lips with his thumb "how drunk were you that weekend in Tampa?" he asked me suddenly, looking into my eyes

I sighed and tried to pull away from him "damn it Nick" I said, quickly starting to get pissed off. why the hell did he have to bring up that fucking weekend?!

Nick quickly shook his head, stopping me from pulling away from him "no, not that. I just .... do you .... I mean I ..... fuck" he stammered

"what?" I asked him, confused now

"do you remember what I said to you?" he asked me quietly

"when?" I asked him

"when you helped me get up to my room" he said. I just stared at him. he remembers that! oh shit. if he remembers that .... "cause I remember everything about that night. I remember you all but tucking me into bed, I remember asking you for a kiss and I remember telling you that I love you"

I just stared at him, shocked. I never would have thought he'd remember all that. not being as drunk as he was. I knew he remembered the kiss, but he never gave any clue that he remembered what he said after the kiss. "you do" I stammered

Nick nodded "I meant it hon. I didnt just say it cause I was drunk. hell, I probably only had the guts to say it cause I was drunk" he said, kind of shrugging his shoulders

I just stood there, staring at him. Jesus. I want to say it back to him. honest. I just cant seem to get the words to come out of my mouth.

"wanna go swimming?" Nick asked

"swimming?" I asked him. where the hell did that come from?

"yeah. it's awesome out here." he said, leading me back towards the pool

"Nick....." I started

he shook his head at me, giving me a smile "you dont have to say it back hon. I just wanted you to know that I meant it." he lowered his head to mine and gave me a soft kiss on the lips "so. wanna swim with me?" he asked with a smirk

I just looked at him for a second. honestly, he looks okay with me not saying 'I love you' back to him. please let him really be okay with it. "I dont have my suit on and I'm sure as hell not gonna swim in this dress! it cost you too much" I teased him

Nick just looked down at me for a second then he smirked "got on anything under that dress?" he asked

I just looked at him "excuse me?" I asked with a laugh

"we can just strip down and jump in. I'll wear my boxers and you wear your underwear and bra" he said

"you're just trying to see if they match" I teased him

"right. like I fucken care if they match" he said with a laugh, shaking his head at me

I raised my eyebrows at him "you should. you paid for them" I said. he just looked at me with a lost look on his face "I had to be sure to get pretty ones for tonight"

"oh really?" he asked with a smirk "that mean you planned on me seeing them?"

I just laughed, rolling my eyes at him "guess you will now. unzip me" I said, turning around so that he can unzip my dress

"what the hell is it with women anyways? why is it y'all can always get a dress zipped up, but you always ask us men for help getting it unzipped" Nick said, reaching out and starting to unzip my dress

I just laughed at him "if you even have to ask that question I've got a lot of work to do" I said. Nick just laughed behind me "you done?" I asked him once I felt the zipper stop. I went to turn around to face him but he stopped me with his hand "what's wrong?"

"nothing. I just ..... I've wanted to do something for awhile now" he said, his voice soft

"huh?" I asked him, confused. I felt Nick gently push the straps to my dress out of his way then I felt his soft lips on my back. I sucked in my breath as I realized what he's doing. he's softly kissing each of my scars. after he kissed the last scar I felt his lips on my neck. I sighed and closed my eyes, enjoying the feeling of his lips on my skin.

Nick bit down lightly on my neck then gently pushed me away from him. I turned around and looked at him. why the hell did he stop?! was I complaining? "let's go in the pool" he said.

"ok" I said. guess he really wants to swim. I pushed the straps to my dress off my shoulders and let the dress pool at my feet.

"Jesus" Nick muttered, just staring at me.

I slowly smiled, seeing his hands freeze on the button to his slacks. hmm.. ok. maybe that's why he pushed me away. looks as if Nick needs to cool down. I bent down and took off my high heeled sandals then looked at him "let's go swimming Carter" I said, walking over to the shallow end and standing on the first step. Jesus. the water is the perfect temperature. I'm not sure if it's heated or just warm from the sun beating down on it all day, but it's perfect (I hate cold pool water! I'd rather it be like bath water).

Nick watched me for a second then shook his head and got his slacks and shirt off. he looked back over at me then threw his glasses off and started running towards the pool. before I could scream no at him, he jumped in the water right by me, getting me soaked.

"Nick!" I screamed

Nick surfaced and laughed at me "what?" he asked innocently

"you got me wet!"

he died laughing "you're in a fucking pool Kate! you're gonna get wet" he teased me

"not my hair and not my face" I said, wiping the water off my forehead "I didnt spend an hour on my hair and makeup to ruin it in the pool"

Nick just rolled his eyes at me, walking over towards the steps and standing in front of me "fine. I wont get your hair wet. just come in more" he said, reaching for my hands

"if you dunk me, you're dead" I warned him

he just laughed, pulling me into the water with him. he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close to him, holding onto me as he pushed us back towards the deep end. I smiled down at him and pushed his bangs out of his eyes. his hair is getting so long. but I love it. "they match" Nick said to me suddenly, brining us towards the edge of the pool

"huh?" I asked him

"you're underwear and bra. they match" he teased

I grinned at him "yup." I said "like 'em?"

"fuck yeah" he said, running his hand up my back

I shivered from his touch and ran my nails down his chest, tracing his footprints tattoos on his chest "what made you get so many tats?" I asked him

he just raised his eyebrows at me "this coming from the woman who has 4?" he teased me

I just laughed "mine are small though" I said "and easily hidden"

"kinda hard to hide an anklet baby" he said, lifting my left leg out of the water and putting my foot on his thigh so he can trace my anklet with his fingers "I like this one best though"

"yeah? me too" I said. Nick moved my foot off his thigh and kinda pushed me away from him. I just looked at him.

he laughed and shook his head "give me a second. I cant keep treading water and holding up both us. we're gonna drown" he said

I just laughed, watching him as he lifted himself up onto the step. "c'mere" he said, holding out his hands for me. I took his hands and he brought me up onto his lap, wrapping my legs around his waist "good?"

"yeah" I said, running my fingers through his hair again. Nick just watched me as I played with his hair, neither one of us saying anything. actually the only thing I can even think about is kissing him. I glanced down at his lips then looked back up at him

"do it" he muttered to me

"do what?" I asked

"fucken kiss me woman" he said with a grin, moving his hand up to the back of my neck and pulling my face closer to his.

I smiled at him then covered his lips with mine, gently biting his lower lip before moving my lips over his. Nick tightened his grip around my waist as I licked his lips, wanting access to his mouth. he grinned against me then opened his mouth, letting my tongue in. as we continued to kiss I could feel him starting to harden between us. he tried to casually shift his waist away from me, but I lightly pushed my hips closer to his - getting a quiet groan from him.

Nick pulled away from the kiss and looked down at me "wanna go back to the room?" he asked me quietly. I paused for a second. there is definitely no turning back if I say yes to him right now. maybe, just maybe , we could go back to being 'just friends' after this one date. "we dont have to baby. I'm not gonna push you" he said, pushing a strand of hair that had fallen down out of my eyes

I looked down in his eyes, amazed at the love I can see shining in them. when did that happen? when did he fall in love with me and I never noticed it before tonight? "I want to" I said quietly

"you sure?" he asked. I just nodded at him "move off me and I'll get you a towel"

"you brought towels?" I asked him

he just laughed "gotta be prepared for everything babe" he said, getting out of the pool and walking over to the blanket. he took two towels out of the picnic basket and wrapped one around his waist before walking back over to me. he held out the towel and I stood up, stepping out of the pool and letting him wrap the towel around me. "let me just blow out all the candles and get our shit together"

I just nodded at him, my insides going crazy at the thought of going back to our room with him. Nick started blowing out all the candles as I started throwing our clothes and everything in the picnic basket "you need your glasses?" I asked him

"nah" he said "just throw them in the basket" he collected all the candles then came back over to me, handing them to me

I took the candles as he took the basket and blanket. he took my hand in his then we walked towards the elevator.

Chapter 27

as soon as we got back to the room Nick dropped all the stuff in the living room then led me to the bedroom "cold?" he asked me as I stood there shivering in my towel

"ya think?" I teased him, wrapping the towel tighter around me.

he grinned at me then put his hands on my arms, rubbing then up and down trying to get me warm "want me to turn the air up?" he asked

I just shook my head no, leaning my body into his with my head on his chest. Nick put his arms around me, trying to get me warm. I paused for a second then kissed his neck right where his collar bones meet in the middle. Nick sucked in his breath and tightened his hold on me. I grinned against him then wrapped my arms around his waist, dipping my fingertips just inside the towel.

"Jesus" Nick muttered. he took my head in his hands, making me look up at him. he just looked at me for a second then lowered his head to mine, kissing me. I closed my eyes and moaned into his mouth. this kiss is definitely different from the other kisses we've shared tonight. while those were soft and gentle this one is hungry and filled with passion. Nick reached up and pulled at the barrette in my hair, trying to get my hair down. I reached up and helped him, shaking my hair out as he smiled down at me. he looked at me for a second then unwrapped my towel, letting it fall to the floor as his hands went to my bra and quickly unhooked it. I moved my arms away from his waist and let him pull the bra off my arms, letting it fall to the floor. Nick just stared down at me for a second then lowered his head to me - running his tongue over my tattoo above my left breast "you're fucking beautiful" he muttered against my skin

I just smiled, loving the feel of his tongue on me. I can certainly get used to him telling me I'm beautiful. usually shit like that embarrasses me, but with Nick it's the way he says it. leaving no doubt in my mind that he truly believes it. he moved his head down to take my breast in his mouth and I sucked in my breath, leaning my head back. I felt Nick grin against me then he started sucking fast on my nipple, quickly getting my heart to race out of control. he bit down on my nipple and I groaned, looking down at him and seeing his eyes staring up at me. "Jesus Christ" I groaned, not sure how much longer I'm gonna be able to stand as he attacks my breast.

Nick moved his mouth off me, kissing across my chest as he moved to my other breast "gotta be fair" he said with a smirk before taking it in his mouth. I tried to laugh but all that came out was another groan as I felt him bite down on me. Nick sucked on my breast as I felt his hand moving down my back. he put his hand inside my underwear, moving his hand over my ass then squeezing it before moving his hand up to the waistband, fighting to slide the wet material off my hips. "damn it" he muttered, taking his mouth off my breast and looking down at my hips with a frustrated look in his eyes.

I giggled, shaking my head at him "they're wet baby" I said

he looked up at me, his eyebrows arched "oh yeah?" he asked with a smirk

"from the pool" I said with a grin

"that the only reason?" he asked, moving his hand between us and cupping my center. I gasped and moaned, closing my eyes. "cause if you're not wet yet, I'm doing something wrong" he slowly moved his fingers over my underwear, causing the silk to rub against my clit and making me moan

"Nicky" I moaned, thrusting my hips towards his hand. Nick stopped moving his hand on me and my eyes flew open "what?"

"do that again. moan my name like that" he said in a husky voice, applying pressure once again to my center. I immediately moaned out his name again, getting a smile from him. Nick's mouth covered mine and I immediately kissed him hungrily as my hands unwrapped the towel around his waist, wanting to taste and feel him. Nick groaned as my hands moved towards the edge of his boxers, my fingers playing with the small amount of hair on his stomach. "fuck baby girl" he moaned into my mouth then gently pushed me away from him "I want to see you. all of you"

I smirked at him then walked backwards towards the bed, telling him with my eyes to follow me. I sat on the bed then moved back, getting into the middle of it. "c'mere" I said to him. Nick just stood there, staring at me. I laughed and shrugged "I can do this myself, but I was kinda thinking you'd wanna help me" I slowly pulled my wet underwear off my hips and down my legs, kicking them off and throwing them on the floor.

"Jesus" Nick muttered, staring at me sitting naked on the bed.

"Nick" I said. he snapped out of his daze and looked up at my face. "get naked and get over here. otherwise all you're gonna get to do is watch"

"fuck baby. I'm supposed to decide between those choices?" he asked with a laugh

I laughed at him "next time you can watch k? right now I really want you on this bed with me. naked" I said

Nick smirked at me then got his boxers off in record time before coming over to the bed and all but throwing himself on top of me, making me laugh "promise?" he asked, leaning down and kissing me

"promise what?" I asked, running my nails up his back - moaning as I felt his erection poking at my center.

"I can watch you get yourself off?" he asked

"you'd want to?" I asked him

he looked down at me like I have three heads "fuck yeah" he said

I smiled at him, lacing my hands in his hair "when we get home you can."

"when we get home?" he whined and I laughed

"what I need is at home baby" I said

"we're fucken finding a sex shop down here and going shopping tomorrow" he said, leaning down and biting my neck as his hand moved slowly down my body. I sighed and bit my bottom lip - my body immediately responding to his touch. Nick gently pushed my legs apart then I felt his fingers rubbing on my clit.

I pulled on his hair, getting him to look up at me "kiss me" I demanded, pulling his face closer to mine. Nick smirked then lowered his head, thrusting his tongue inside as he shoved two fingers deep inside me. I screamed out, thrusting my hips towards his hand

Nick moaned into my mouth, using his thumb to rub my clit as he slammed his fingers in and out of me at a feverish pace. I pulled my head away from his, needing to get some air as I quickly started to lose control. I reached down to his hand, fighting to get his fingers deeper inside of me. "want more baby? can you handle it?" Nick asked me, watching me as I fought to keep some sense of control. I dont want this to end, not yet. it feels to fucking good.

"yes" I choked out, spreading my legs wider as he pulled his fingers out of me. I groaned at the loss of his fingers - my groan quickly turning into a scream as I felt three of his fingers now filling me "oh God ... Nick ..."

"you wanna cum yet baby? is that what you want?" Nick asked me, kneeling next to me on the bed, his eyes never leaving my face

I shook my head no, crying out and lifting my hips towards his hand "I want ..." I started then screamed out as Nick put my butt on his knee - giving his fingers a deep angle inside of me. "oh Jesus .... I cant .... stop ....." I cried out, feeling like my heart is about to beat right out of my chest

Nick's fingers immediately froze inside me as soon as he heard me tell him to stop. he looked down at me, concern on his face "baby?" he asked me

I just shook my head, fighting to get my breathing back "I just .... oh God .... it feels so fucken good" I cried out

Nick leaned his head down, covering my lips with his and giving me a soft kiss "let me make you cum baby. let me send you over the edge" he said softly, slowly moving his fingers inside me again

I moaned, thrusting my body towards his fingers once again "please" I begged him

Nick kissed me one more time then started moving his fingers inside me once again as he moved his head down my body. "that's it honey ... let it go" he said, bending his head down and sucking my clit into his mouth.

I screamed out, thrashing on the bed as I felt myself start to cum. Nick sped up the movements of his fingers and mouth at the same time, prolonging my orgasm. finally I stopped thrashing around and I buried my head in the pillow, trying to get my breathing under control as Nick continued to suck me. I groaned as I felt his fingers and mouth leave me. I felt his body move around on the bed then I felt him lightly bite my earlobe

"hey" he said softly in my ear. I opened my eyes and turned my head, looking at him "ok if I kiss you?"

I smiled at him, nodding. he covered my mouth with his and stuck his tongue inside my mouth, letting me taste myself on him. I moaned and traced my nails on the back of his neck, loving the fact that he shuddered as soon as I did that. "Jesus" I muttered with a sigh after Nick's lips left mine

he smirked at me "dont ever do that to me again" he teased me. I just looked at him, confused "tell me to fucken stop. Christ woman, you scared the shit outta me"

I smiled, somewhat embarrassed "no one has ever been able to make me lose control like that" I admitted

Nick raised his eyebrows at me "no one has ever made you cum before?" he said

"yeah, they have. but damn, not like that" I said

he slowly smirked "good" he said and I smiled at him, reaching up and pushing his hair out of his eyes

as I finally got my senses back in order, I realized that I can feel Nick's erection against my leg. Jesus. he never even got off. I lowered my hand between us, wrapping my fingers around him, getting a gasp and a moan from him.

"no" Nick groaned, taking my hand off him

"no?" I asked, stunned

he shook his head "I cant handle much baby girl. I wanna be inside you. you okay now?" he asked. I just nodded, my heart jumping to my throat at the thought of finally having him buried deep inside me. Nick rolled over onto his back, reaching for the nightstand next to the bed. I took the opportunity to look at his naked body as he searched for a condom. Jesus. this man is truly beautiful. and painfully hard. I reached out and ran my finger over the tip of his erection, smearing the pre cum over his head. Nick jumped, turning to glare at me "no" he swatted my hand away from him, making me laugh

"we done? I can shower then?" I teased him

"fuck no" he said with a laugh "you just cant touch me. I'm about to lose it Katie. you have no idea what watching you lose control like that did to me"

"oh, I think I do" I said, reaching for him again

"stop it" he laughed, pushing my hand away from him again. I just pouted at him as he laughed then rolled the condom over himself. I just watched him, my eyes never leaving his hardness until the condom was fully on him. Jesus, can I even explain what it's doing to me watching as Nick touches himself? if he gets to watch, so do I! I finally tore my eyes away from his hands and looked up at him, finding him watching me and smirking.

"now" was all I said to him, reaching up for his head and pulling him down on top of me. we each groaned as his hardness rubbed against my clit. Nick took his hardness in his hand and slowly guided himself to me as I instinctively spread my legs for him.

"fuck" Nick groaned as he filled me completely. I just sighed, content to finally have him connected with me. "you're so fucking wet baby girl" he moaned, fighting to keep himself inside me "wrap your legs around my waist" I wrapped my legs around his waist and locked my ankles behind his lower back causing both of us to cry out at the tightness that it caused. "fuck .... that's it baby"

I moved my hands down to Nick's hips, trying to get him to move quicker. "harder baby" I moaned

Nick shook his head "not yet ..... I cant ..... wanna wait for you ....." he stammered, fighting to control himself

I smiled at him, gently stroking his cheek with my finger "no. let it go baby. I want to watch you lose control" I said, clamping my insides around him

"shit!" Nick cried out, jerking inside me as he felt my tightness clamping around him

"fuck me Nick. hard" I said, leaning my head up and biting his chin.

Nick groaned, his eyes closing as he started moving himself in and out of me. I moaned as I felt him pull out then quickly bury himself deep inside me time after time. I thrust my hips up to his, using my hands to thrust his hips down to mine at the same time. "Katie .... I gotta ..... I'm so close" Nick panted

"do it. cum Nick. now" I breathed in his ear, clamping myself around him once again.

that did it and I felt Nick twitch inside me. he screamed out and threw his head back, pounding himself in and out of me as I felt his body start to shake. I kept thrusting my hips up to his, wanting his orgasm to last as long as possible for him. Nick gave one last thrust then collapsed on top of me, breathing hard in my ear as I lightly rubbed his back - letting him slowly come down from his high.

"Jesus Christ" he panted after a few minutes, lifting his head and looking down at me. "why the fuck did we wait so long to do this?"

I had to laugh at that "cause we're stupid?" I said

"yeah, I think so" he chuckled, pulling out of me. he took the condom off himself and threw it in the wastebasket before laying down on his stomach and throwing his arm across my waist. "you wanna take a shower or just go to sleep?" he asked me lazily

I ran my nails up his arm, smirking at him "shower could be fun" I said

Nick groaned "fuck baby. there aint no way I'm gonna be able to get it up after that" he said

"we'll see" I said with a laugh, getting out of bed and smacking his ass "let's go Carter. you're young. I have faith in you"

Nick just laughed and jumped out of bed, chasing me into the bathroom as I screamed.

***************

"you awake?" Nick asked me, gently nibbling on my ear

"hmmm" I mumbled, snuggling deeper into his chest "what time is it?"

I felt him move around then lay back down "a little after 8" he said

I groaned "honey, we just went to sleep a little over 4 hours ago" I mumbled. let's just say he had no trouble getting it up in the shower. or again back in bed either.

"yeah but you woke me up" he said, kissing my shoulder

"me? I was sleeping until two seconds ago" I said

"you moved back against me" he muttered, thrusting his hips towards me and letting me feel his hardness.

I giggled "sure you dont just have to piss?" I teased him

"nu-uh" he said "you gonna hate me if I do something?"

"what are you gonna do?" I asked, part of me wanting to just go back to sleep

"this" he said, thrusting his hips towards me and rubbing my clit with his erection before quickly entering me

"Jesus Christ" I moaned, automatically pushing back against him

"hate me?" he asked with a laugh, slowly moving himself in and out of me

"no" I moaned "you better be wearing a condom though"

"I am" he gasped, reaching for my left leg and putting it on top of his own leg - opening me up more for him. I sighed and reached for his hand, bringing it down to my center and rubbing his fingers on my clit

"fuck" Nick groaned in my ear, moving his fingers over my clit as he pounded himself in and out of me.

I groaned, quickly loosing control. I reached back and put my hand on Nick's waist, trying to pull him closer to me. "oh God .... Nicky ....." I panted

"almost baby .... just wait .... hold on ......" he stammered, removing his hand from my center and putting it on my hip, pounding himself in and out of me at a feverish pace. "oh fuck! now baby ..... now" he cried out

I felt him start to jerk deep inside me and moved my own hand down to my center, quickly rubbing my clit - knowing Nick's close.

"oh fuck" Nick groaned, seeing what my own hand is doing to me. I whimpered and bucked my body back against Nick, screaming out as my orgasm started to wash through me. Nick put his hand on my stomach, thrusting my body back hard against his once more before crying out my name then jerking deep inside me and cumming.

"damn" I panted, lacing my fingers with Nick's as we both tried to get our breathing out of control

"I hope you didnt come down to Mexico to get a tan" he said, slowly pulling out of me.

I laughed "why's that?"

"cause I'm not letting you leave this fucking bed" he said, kissing my shoulder

"we'll see" I said with a laugh, snuggling back against him as my eyes started to close again

Chapter 28

Sunday - March 23, 2003

"well look at you two! all nice and tan!" Kris said, getting up as Nick and I walked into the house.

I went right over to her and gave her a hug "miss me?" I teased her as Nick put our suitcases down

she rolled her eyes at me "oh yeah" she said "hey pop star"

"hi" he mumbled

she just raised her eyebrows at him

"he's sick. he ate some bad fish yesterday down there" I said, feeling bad for him. hell, yesterday I honestly thought he was dieing. I've never seen anyone get that sick over bad seafood. then again, I dont eat it! we almost changed our flight home but he had said he was fine. he actually did look better, until the plane took off. the poor guy threw up practically the whole flight

"ugh. you okay?" Kris asked him

"no. baby, I'm headed up to bed" he muttered to me, starting to look green again

"you need anything? I can run out and get you some Ginger Ale" I offered.

he just shook his head no bending down to give me a kiss. he thought better of it at the last minute (thank God! ick!) and instead of kissing me on the lips he just kinda grazed my neck with his mouth "love you" he muttered then dragged himself upstairs

"honey, do you want clothes or anything?" I called after him, getting only the closing of my bedroom door as my answer "guess not" I said with a laugh, turning to find Kris just staring at me. "what?"

"uh, I take it you two aren't fighting anymore" was all she said

I died laughing. oops. I guess I'm just so used to Ron knowing about Nick and I that I forgot that no one else knows we're together "you could say that" I said, going over to the suitcases - trying to remember which one I put all the gifts in.

"what are you doing?" Kris all but yelled at me

"looking for your presents" I said

"fuck the presents! I wanna hear about Mexico! did he just say he loved you before he headed up stairs?!"

I laughed and went over to the couch, sitting down "he did? yeah, I guess he probably did. he says it a lot" I said, nonchalantly

"ok. you need to start for the beginning girl. when you left here 10 days ago the two of you weren't even talking!" Kris said

I laughed and shook my head "ok. uh, when I got to Mexico we fought. Jesus, we basically fought for the first two days. then we just finally talked it out and pretty much silently agreed never to talk about Tampa again. then on Saturday we went to the Ruins. let me tell you what that asshole did too. everything we did involved heights! he's mean as shit Kris" I said with a laugh

"whatever" she said, shaking her head "get back to the good stuff"

I laughed at her "so after we got back to the room he asked me if I felt like going out. then he said 'kinda like a date'. wait a minute, you should know all this. he called you!" I said, realizing that

"he called me, but he never told me all this was gonna happen" she said "he just simply asked what you might like to do on a date!"

I laughed "thanks for that. it wasn't a picnic on the beach, but he did rent out the roof of the hotel for our picnic. they had a pool up there and everything. it was gorgeous Kris" I said, remembering it.

"awww... how romantic!" she said

"yeah" I said with a smile "anyways, once he asked me out and I said yes he gave me his room key and told me to go buy something 'sexy'. so while I was shopping downstairs in the lobby, he was planning the whole picnic" I said

"oh man. Christ, he's already making me sick" she teased

I just laughed at her "then he tried to get me to the edge of the roof, to see the city lights from way up there"

"no way! why? he knows you're afraid of heights. did New York teach that man nothing?" she laughed

"please. he took me parasailing too" I said with a laugh

"good God! you sure he likes you?" she asked

I nodded "when he asked me to look at the city lights I asked him why the hell he was insisting on trying to get me over my fear of heights. and he said cause he doesn't want me to be afraid of anything"

"oh God. so what you're telling me is that he's fucken perfect" she said with a laugh

"pretty much" I said "so I freaked out, of course. I couldn't take the last step towards the edge and I turned into him, practically begging him not to make me do it"

Kris laughed "how to ruin a romantic evening, eh?" she teased

"that's what I thought too. but then he just took my face in his hands and kissed me" I said, smiling "then we went swimming in the pool then back to the room"

she narrowed her eyes at me "you slept with him on the first date, didnt you?" she asked

I laughed and blushed "many times" I said

"you go girl!" she laughed, giving me a high five "how was he?"

"Kristine!" I said with a laugh

"come on. you've wanted him for over 4 years! is he as good as you thought?"

I just looked at her "better" I said

she just laughed "so get to the whole 'I love you' part. when the hell did that happen!?"

"that night of our date. he told me that he remembered telling me he loves me in Tampa and that he meant it. he hasn't stopped saying it since"

"awww. so you two are in love" she said. I just kind of looked at her "wait a minute. you did say it back to him, didnt you?"

"not exactly" I mumbled

"what! why the hell not! Katie!"

"I wanted to. honest. but I couldn't get the friggen words to come out of my mouth. then he said that I didnt have to say it back. said he understood. I dont know if he really does though" I muttered

"so what the hell do you do when he tells you he loves you? ignore him?!" she asked, looking stunned

"no. I usually kiss him or something. he knows I'm happy with him Kris. he doesn't need to here the words"

"you sure about that?" she asked and I nodded "you still haven't told me why you wont say it to him. you know you love him"

I just kind of shrugged "I think I do. I mean, Jane said it best when I went down there the weekend before I left. he's the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing I think of before I fall asleep. I just .... I dont know"

Kris sighed "you're scared. fucking Vinnie messed you up big time and now you're scared to say it. even to Nick" Kris said, knowing that's exactly why I haven't said it to Nick. Vinnie is my ex-boyfriend. let's just say it wasn't the healthiest relationship. too bad it took almost 5 years for me to see it.

"yeah" I admitted

"hon, I understand. believe me, I understand. but Nick's not Vinnie. Nick loves you. Christ, one look at the man and anyone could tell. it's written all over his face. which brings up a good point. you two know you're not going to be able to hide this from his fans, right? any idiot can see his love for you shining in his eyes"

I smiled, loving the fact that she can see what I think I see every time Nick looks at me "I know. we haven't talked at all about it. we just enjoyed Mexico"

"I'm happy for you hon. I haven't seen you this happy in quite a long time and it's good to see. I'm gonna head to bed though. I got called into work for tomorrow. you need to go upstairs and check on your man anyways. he doesn't look all that hot"

I nodded, standing up "yeah. he was so sick yesterday Kris. he scared the hell out of me. I really thought he was dieing"

she nodded "wake me up if he gets bad again and I'll check him" she said

I smiled at her. thank God she's a nurse! "thanks. I'll give you all your gifts tomorrow night"

"sweet" she said

"Kris, wait" I said. she turned around and looked at me "I forgot to ask you something. Nick's off tour until a show on the 4th. do you mind if he stays here?"

"nope. not at all hon. night" she said

"night girl" I said. I grabbed the bag that all my bathroom stuff is in then headed upstairs.

I went to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth then I went into my room, closing my door behind me. I glanced over at the bed and smiled at Nick. at least it looks like he's able to finally get some sleep. he couldn't sleep at all last night, that's how bad he was. I got undressed then went over to the bed, moving the covers and climbing in next to Nick. as soon as I laid down and the bed moved he moaned, waking up "sorry honey" I said "how you feeling?"

"like shit" he groaned

"want me to rub your belly?" I asked him. I had tried to rub it for him last night but he wouldn't even let me near him.

"yeah" he said, sounding pathetic

I gently laid down next to him on my side, softly rubbing my hand in big circles around his stomach "my poor baby" I said, softy kissing his chest. I rubbed his belly for a few minutes then all of a sudden he shoved my hand away from him and leaned over the edge of the bed, throwing up

"shit!" I muttered, jumping up. son of a bitch! all over my rug! argh! I ran around the bed and noticed Nick hanging above a wastebasket. great, now I feel like shit. I was worried about my rug and he was smart enough to put the basket next to him when he came up here. I knelt down next to him, rubbing his back as I tried not to gag as I listened to him throwing up.

"Katie? he okay?" Kris asked, knocking on my door

"wait a second" I called to her, grabbing Nick's t-shirt and throwing it on. "I'm gonna let Kris in baby"

"I dont want a fucken audience" he muttered

"honey, she's a nurse. just let her check you" I said. all he did was start to throw up again. I covered up his lower body with the sheet then walked over to the door, letting her in "he just started again" I said to her, turning on the light

Nick groaned from the light, still hunched over the basket.

Kris went right over to him, feeling his forehead "no fever. that's good. can you lay back Nick?" she asked him. he just groaned at her "come on pop star. do this one thing for me"

Nick muttered at her but got back on the bed, laying on his back - clutching the sheet around his waist

Kris rolled her eyes at him "I'm a nurse Nick. I've seen it all before" she said to him with a laugh

"not mine" he muttered

"yeah. not his" I said with a laugh

"anything else hurt besides your stomach?" she asked Nick, ignoring both of us

"my head's fucking pounding"

"that's just from throwing up so much. nothing else though?"
"no. it's enough, trust me" he groaned

"k. he's gonna be fine. he just has to get it all out of his system, which is why he keeps throwing up. I'd be worried if he were running a fever but he's not. I think I have some Gatorade down in the fridge. I'll go down and bring it up"

"I'll get it" I said

"dont want it" Nick muttered

"too bad. you need to keep yourself hydrated Nick. even if you just take a few sips all night, it'll help" Kris said to him, using her stern nurse voice

"fine" he muttered

"thanks Kris" I said to her, following her out of my room.

"yeah. night"

"night" I said, going down to the kitchen to get the Gatorade then brining it back up to the room. looks like it's gonna be another long night.

Chapter 29

Saturday - April 4, 2003

"ohmigod. why dont you just put a sign out on the garage that says 'I'm dating a pop star'" Kris muttered as she shook her head and rolled her eyes

I just laughed at her, carrying my duffle bag down the stairs "why?" I asked

"have you not looked outside? there's a huge ass tour bus in front of our house" she complained as the doorbell rang

I just laughed harder at her, going to get the door "hey baby" I said with a smile when I saw Nick, leaning into him to give him a kiss

he backed away from me "I'm sick" he muttered

"again? Christ. you need to drink more juice" Kris said, putting her bag over her shoulder

"I got it" Nick muttered, reaching for her bag

"it's ok" Kris said

"whatever" he muttered, aggravated. oh, this is gonna be a fun trip to Georgia stuck in a bus with him all sick and grumpy. "give me your bag Kate"

I bit my tongue not to snap at him, reminding myself that he hasn't been feeling well and that he sounds horrible. I handed him my bag and he turned and walked out of the house - heading towards the bus

"maybe I'll just stay home" Kris muttered, staring after him

"like hell! I'm not dealing with him alone" I said, pushing her towards the front door

"he's your boyfriend! not mine!" she insisted

"too bad. you're my best friend. you're coming" I said, closing the door and locking it. "let's go"

we headed towards the bus, finding Nick waiting impatiently for us on the stairs "we dont have all day" he muttered

"we're right here hon." I said as sweetly as I could. Kris just laughed, knowing from experience what I really want to do is to tell him to shove his attitude right up his ass. "Bob!" I said excitedly when I saw him sitting at the wheel "how are you?" I leaned down and gave him a kiss on the cheek

"I'm much better now that you're here to deal with him" Bob said with a laugh

I rolled my eyes "gee, thanks" I said with a laugh "Bob, this is Kris. Kris, Bob Carter"

Bob stood up, shaking her hand "it's very nice to finally meet you Kris. well, we've met before but you know what I mean" he said with a smile

Kris smiled at him "exactly" she said

"what the fuck? I have a show tonight dad. I dont have all damn day to sit on the street chatting" Nick said, standing in the living area of bus

"stop. if you're gonna act like that for the whole ride, go back to your room" Bob said, getting back behind the wheel as Kris and I laughed

Nick glared at all of us then stomped down the hallway, slamming the door to his bedroom shut.

I sighed "this'll be fun" I muttered, walking to the couch and throwing my bag down.

"you need to go calm him down. I dont want to have to deal with that for 8 hours on a bus" Kris said

I sighed "fine. I'll go deal with him" I muttered, walking down towards the bedroom as I felt the bus start to move. I knocked on the door then opened it a little, peeking my head in "honey? can I come in?"

"I dont care" he muttered

I sighed and went into the room, shutting the door behind me "have you taken any medicine?" I asked, going over to the bed where he's laying down and feeling his forehead "baby, you're burning up"

"no shit" he said

"want me to get Kris? have her look at you?" I asked him

"it's a fucken cold Kate. I dont need a fucken nurse to tell me that" Nick snapped at me

I just stared at him, quickly getting to the end of my rope with him "fine. I was just asking" I said

he sighed "whatever" he muttered, fighting to get comfortable

"do you want anything? juice?" I asked

"I dont need fucking juice" he spat at me

"fine. fucking suffer" I spat back, sick of his attitude. I turned to stomp away from him but stopped when he gently grabbed my arm. I turned back around and looked down at him

"I'm sorry" he said, coughing "lay down with me for a while?"

my anger vanished as I saw the look on his face. he looks so sad and just like he feels icky. God, I cant even imagine having to get up on stage feeling like shit. "let me just go tell Kris I'm gonna stay back here for a while"

"just intercom her" he said

I just looked at him "I can intercom her?" I asked, excited

Nick actually smiled at my excitement. "yeah. that speaker by the door. it'll actually get you to dad, but he can tell her" Nick said

"aw sweet!" I said, going over to the intercom "what do I do?"

"just push the button then let go. push it when you want to talk then let go when you wanna listen" Nick said

I pushed the intercom then let go

"what?" I heard Bob say with a sigh

oh, this is too cool! "hey Bob" I said with a laugh

"oh, hey honey. what's up?" he asked, his tone of voice changing as soon as he heard my voice

"can I talk to Kris real quick?" I asked

"sure. one second" he said.

I heard nothing for a second then I heard Kris say "I do what?"

"talk to her. she can hear you" Bob said with a laugh

"Katie?" Kris asked

"now let go" Bob said, laughing harder

"girl! is this not freaking awesome!" I yelled to her, hearing Nick laugh behind me

"tell me about it! pop star did good with the bus!" she said and I heard Bob die laughing at her nick-name for Nick

"I'm gonna stay back here and lay down with him for a bit. you good up there?"

"did you not see the TV?! I'm fine! ask pop star if he's got any movies"

"under the stereo in the entertainment center. and tell her to lay off the fucken pop star shit" Nick said from the bed

"whatever. I heard him. tell him to take some medicine and sleep for the next 8 hours. have fun with him. I'm going to find me a movie" Kris said

I laughed at her "k" I said then walked over towards the bed, climbing on with him

"aren't you gonna take your clothes off?" Nick asked

I laughed at him "uh, no. you're sick baby. all we're gonna do is lay here together" I said

"yeah. but I like you naked" he whined

I laughed, shaking my head at him as I reached over him for the remote. "not this time pal. you need to sleep." I said, turning on the TV then getting comfortable next to him

Nick threw his arm across my stomach and laid his head on my chest, sighing when I reached out and started stroking his hair with my fingers.

I watched TV for about an hour then I carefully untangled myself from him and got out of bed. Nick moaned in his sleep and rolled over onto his back, his eyes slowly opening "go back to sleep baby" I said, leaning down and giving him a soft kiss on the lips

"love you" he muttered before falling back asleep.

I just looked down at him for a second then turned and went down to the living area, closing his door behind me

"he sleeping?" Kris asked me as I sat down on the couch next to her

"yeah. he's running a fever"

"how bad?" she asked, the nurse in her immediately coming out

I shrugged "he's hot. that's all I know" Kris sighed, shaking her head at me "hey, I work at a gym - I'm not a doctor. I told him I'd get him some juice and he jumped down my throat. I tried"

"he probably shouldn't go on tonight" she said

"please dont try to talk him out of it." I said and she just looked at me "Kris, I'm begging you. he's 23 years old. he knows what he's doing"

"I wont say anything" she promised with a sigh

"thank you" I said, not even wanting to imagine that fight.

**********

"honey, me and Kris are gonna go walk around the park and go on the rides. you wanna go?" I asked Nick about 30 minutes after we pulled up to the amusement park where his show is tonight

he just looked at me like I have three heads "yeah right. that'd be fucken fun" he muttered "I feel like shit then I can walk around, run into a bunch of fans and have to play nice. sounds like fun"

"you dont have to be an ass about it. a simple no would have been fine" I snapped at him. ok, I know he's sick. I know he feel like shit. but he doesn't have to take it out on me

"fine. no" he snarled at me

I grabbed my purse without saying anything to him "let's go" I said to Kris, stomping past her and off the bus. people screamed as soon as I stepped off and I jumped. ok. at least there is a big ass fence between us. Kris came off the bus and the screaming started again. this time all I could do was laugh.

"Jesus. like they cant tell we're not Nick?" Kris muttered to me

I just laughed harder, tucking our passes into my purse then looking around, trying to figure out how the hell do get out of here.

"this way" Kris said, grabbing my arm and dragging me towards where she believes the gate is. how she knows this I dont know. but as long as I'm not on that damn bus with Nick right now, I dont care where the hell we go!

we found the gate and as soon as we walked through it people screamed again. Jesus people. can you not see that we're not Nick?

"Katie, can you give this to Nick please" a woman maybe 20 years old said, thrusting an envelope at me. I just stared at her, shocked. she knows my name? why do I not really like that

"we'll get it to Nick hon, thanks" I heard Ron say then Kris and I were dragged away from the crowd of people "what in the hell do you think you're doing?"

I just raised my eyebrows at him "uh, gonna have some fun" I said

"Jesus Christ. did it ever dawn on you that it might not be safe to just wander around?"
I just laughed at him "I'm not who they want Ron. Nick's safe on the bus" I said

Ron sighed at me "no, you're not who they want. you're his girlfriend - which is worse. Jesus hon."

"the fans dont know we're dating Ron. it's fine" I said to him

"they dont? have you not been on the message boards lately? they know hon." I just stared at him. the fans know? great. "you two gonna go on rides or just walk around?"

"we were thinking of doing both, but if we have to go back to the bus we will" Kris said

Ron shook his head "nah. I'll stick with you two. Bob's staying with Nick. kids' not going anywhere anyways. he still feels like shit"

"you gonna go on the rides with us?" I asked him with a laugh

"no" was all he said

"please?" I asked him, linking my arm through his and batting my eyes at him

Ron just laughed and looked down at me. before he could say anything we heard someone hiss 'slut' behind us.

I froze and turned around, facing a teenaged girl "excuse me?" I asked her

"Katie" Kris said under her breath

"what, you cant get Nick so you go for his bodyguard?" the girl sneered at me

"no. Ron is a friend of mine" I said

"oh, I'm sure" she all but laughed at me "it's all over the net that you saved Nick just to get into his pants"

"all over the net? oh yeah. and that's a reliable source to listen to. why dont you grow up and find someone your own age to play with" I spat at her

"let's go" Ron said, dragging me away from the girl. "damn it Katie"

"what! she called me a slut!" I yelled at him, pissed off that he's mad at me "was I supposed to just stand there and let her"

"yes!" he all but yelled at me "you think she's not gonna tell all her internet buddies that you're a bitch now?"

"like I care?!" I yelled

"you should. you wanna date him you gotta learn to play the game missy. being pissy to the fans isn't the way to do it" Ron said

"let go of me" I snapped, pulling my arm from his grip then stomping away from him back towards the bus

"Katie" Kris called after me "damn it Ron. she's human. this is new to her. cut her some damn slack"

"I cant. I dont want to be mean but she's gotta understand how it is Kris. she's not just Katie anymore. she's Katie-who's-dating-Nick-Carter now" he said

I heard them as they followed me, yet I chose to ignore them. once we got to the crowd near the fence I tried to smile as I walked through them, stopping and taking some letters from fans for Nick as I tried to get my pass out of my purse.

"just go hon" Ron said, gently pushing me through the gate with Kris right behind him.

I shook his hand off my back as soon as the gate closed and walked as fast as I could to the bus

"whoa. what's wrong?" Nick asked, looking up from the couch as I stomped onto the bus. I ignored him and walked back towards the room

"you need to go talk to her" I heard Kris say just as I slammed the door shut.

about 5 minutes later the door opened and Nick came into the room "baby girl" he said when he saw me sitting on the bed crying

"go away" I mumbled, burying my face in the pillow. he obviously ignored me cause I felt the bed dip next to me then I felt him try to put his arms around me "stop"

"no" he said, getting his arms around me and pulling me against him. as soon as I was in his protective embrace the tears started again, no matter how much I tried to stop them "baby, dont cry" he said, softly kissing the top of my head

"she called me a slut Nick! just because I was talking to Ron! she doesn't even know me!"

"I know baby." he said, rubbing my back "I hate to say it, but some of them are just mean. they dont care that I have a life of my own. they think I'm theirs"

"well you're not. you're mine" I muttered

Nick laughed "damn straight baby girl" he said

I sighed and sat up, wiping the tears from my eyes "you feeling better?" I asked him

he shrugged "a little. good enough to go on tonight" he said. I just nodded, getting up and going into the bathroom. "wanna watch a movie honey? I just started one out in the living room"

"yeah. that's fine. I'll be out in a minute"

"ok hon. I'll meet you out there" he said then I heard him leave.

Chapter 30

Friday - April 18, 2003

"ok kids. I'm headed out for the night. be good" Kris said to me and Nick as she came down the stairs, dressed for her date.

"good? that's no fun" I teased her

she just laughed "whatever. I'll be home late so the house is yours. bye"

"bye" we both called to her

as soon as the front door shut behind her, Nick jumped up off the couch - grabbing my hand and dragging me up.

"what're you doing?" I asked him with a laugh

he turned and just looked at me "Katie, we're alone. I've been fucken waiting for a night alone since we got back from Mexico!" he said

"why?" I asked, still laughing at him. the look on his face is priceless

"why? honey, as much as I love Kris - I'm sick of quiet sex. I wanna hear you scream" he said

I just laughed, shaking my head "it's not like you haven't been getting it practically every night"

he just rolled his eyes at me with a smirk "either you walk up those stairs with me or I'm carrying you" he said

"yeah right" I said to him. he just raised his eyebrows at me then came at me, picking me up and swinging me over his shoulder "Nickolas! put me down!" I yelled, laughing as I slapped his ass

"nope" he said, starting to walk towards the stairs

"Nick! you're not gonna be able to carry me up all those stairs!" I said, beating on his ass by this point

"keep slapping me baby. all you're doing is turning me on more" he chuckled, slowly starting to walk up the stairs.

by the time we got to my bedroom he was out of breath and he practically threw me on the bed, his face all red and trying to catch his breath

"I told you!" was all I said to him

"got you up here, didnt I?" he gasped

I just shook my head at him "except now you cant breath. how romantic baby. now I gotta go on a diet cause you cant carry me" I teased him

he just rolled his eyes at me "where is it?" he demanded

I laughed "where's what?" I asked

"the toy. you promised I could watch"

I died laughing. I should have known! "that's what this is all about?"

he just looked at me like I have three heads "uh, yeah" he said

"baby, I cant just go at it! Christ. there's such a thing as getting in the mood" I said

he raised his eyebrows at me, coming over to the bed and crawling on top of me "that's why I'm here" he said huskily in my ear, biting down on my earlobe. I closed my eyes and tried to hide a moan. it's amazing how quickly he can get me to moan. to want him. "I'm gonna make you so wet baby. you're gonna fucken beg me to let you play with the toy. to let you shove it inside you" this time I didnt even try to hide the moan. what's the use? he knows exactly how to turn me on, so he knows this is working "is that what you want baby? want me to make you wet so you can use it?"

"yes" I choked out, pulling on his hair to get him to kiss me. Nick smiled against my lips then I felt his tongue inside my mouth. I moaned into his mouth, letting my tongue play with his. I felt him tugging on my shirt and I raised my back off the bed, giving him the room he needs to get the shirt off me.

"fuck" he groaned when he got my shirt off and noticed I'm not wearing a bra. I just smirked at him. "you got anything on underneath the shorts?"

my smirk turned into a smile and I leaned up to kiss his lips as I took his hand in mine "find out" I said, leading his hand to my waist.

Nick quickly shoved his hand inside my shorts, groaning once again when he felt nothing but my body under his touch "fuck woman." he said, lightly tracing his finger on my clit. he traced my clit for a minute then he took his hand out of my shorts. I looked up at him and glared. "hang on baby." he said with a chuckle, getting up off the bed. I just watched him as he took his clothes off, my eyes following every movement of his hand. I know for a fact that I will never get tired of seeing him naked. he is truly beautiful. I glanced down at his hardness, smiling when I saw that he's already starting to get hard. I love the fact that he can get hard just by pleasuring me. Nick grinned down at me then leaned down, kissing my stomach softly "these have got to go" he said, running his tongue just below the waistband of my shorts before pulling them off. he tossed my shorts onto the floor behind him then he leaned down, sucking on my belly button. I squirmed from the ticklish feeling and Nick just chuckled against my skin. he stuck his tongue into my belly button and I nearly came up off the bed, crying out. Nick moved his hand between my legs, pushing them apart to give himself room. I whimpered as he lightly traced my clit with his finger, then screamed out as he pinched it between his thumb and finger.

"Nick....." I groaned, putting my hand on his head and trying to move him down to where I want him

he just looked up at me with a smirk on his face "what baby? you want something?" he asked

"Nick" I said, sternly. he knows damn well what I want!

he just smirked at me again, leaning down and kissing my belly button once more before slowly kissing his way down towards my center. he spread myself open for him with his fingers then leaned down and blew his hot breath on my clit, making me scream out. before I could all but beg him to use his mouth, I felt his tongue lick me slowly then quickly attack my clit.

"fuck!" I cried out, lifting my hips off the bed. Nick chuckled against me, holding my hips down with his hands. Nick continued to attack my clit with his mouth and tongue, quickly getting me to the edge. I grabbed his hair in my hands again, trying to get him as close as possible to me. just when I could feel the tingling start in my toes Nick stopped his attack on me and lifted his head "Nick!" I yelled. damn him! I was so close!

"where is it?" he asked, his eyes not leaving mine. I fought to get my brain to work. where the hell did I put it? "Katie"

"uh .... Jesus .... bottom drawer of my nightstand" I stammered, trying to control my breathing.

Nick rolled off the bed and crawled over to the nightstand, opening the drawer. "here we go" he said with a smirk, holding it up. I just rolled my eyes at him. "it's small"

"no. you're big" I said

"works for me" he teased, crawling onto the bed

"me too, trust me" I said, grinning at him

he just looked down at me "what? this? or me?" he asked

"both" I said, laughing when Nick frowned at me "but I prefer you"

"you damn well better woman" he said, laying down next to me and slowly kissing me "you okay with this?"

"baby, either give me my toy or fuck me. I need something" I whined to him.

he just smirked at me, slowly moving the dildo down my body "you wet enough?" he asked, dipping just the tip of the dildo in my center.

I cried out, immediately arching towards his hand. "baby" I whined

he took my hand in his and led it down to the dildo between my legs "you do it. I get to watch" he said, huskily in my ear

I let out a deep breath, all but pushing his hand away so that I can grasp the dildo. as soon as I grabbed it, I shoved the full length of the dildo inside me, crying out at the feeling of finally having something buried deep inside me

"Christ" Nick growled, his eyes not leaving me.

I moaned, arching my back as I quickly thrust it in and out of myself. I felt Nick's hands move down my stomach then he put his hand on top of mine, stopping my movements "Nick!" I cried out, glaring at him

"slow baby" he said

I shook my head "I cant ..... not this time .... I need it ...." I gasped, fighting to move my hand.

Nick shook his head no "this is my fantasy Kate." he said, leaning down and kissing my ear "you have to do it my way"

I groaned, quickly getting frustrated "fine. just .... just let me move" I all but begged him

"slow" he reminded me, moving his hand off mine.

I quickly pulled the dildo out, then slowly pushed it back inside myself - crying out at the feeling. I continued to move it in and out of myself slowly, wanting to move it faster but knowing that Nick wants me to go slow. soon though I couldn't go slow anymore, I'm too close to care what Nick wants! "baby ..... please ..... I cant go slow" I gasped out, fighting to not just pound it in and out of myself

"k baby." he said softly, slowly moving his hand down my body again "do it baby girl. make yourself cum"

I screamed out as I felt his fingers on my clit, quickly moving the dildo in and out of myself as fast as I could. within seconds I felt my orgasm start and I screamed out, arching my back right up off the bed as I bucked my hips against both our hands. Nick continued to rub my clit with his fingers, then covered my mouth with his - moaning into my mouth as my orgasm rushed through me. I slowly stopped moving the dildo inside me, gasping for air and I started to come down from my high. I vaguely felt Nick take the dildo out of me then gasped in surprise as I felt him fill me "Nicky ....." I moaned "I cant"

"yes you can baby girl" he said softly in my ear, slowly moving himself in and out of me

I just groaned, my insides immediately clamping around him. Jesus. this man drives me crazy.

Nick groaned in my ear as he moved both of my hands above my head, lacing our fingers together. "look at me baby" he said softly. I slowly opened my eyes, immediately tearing up when I saw the love in his eyes "I love you"

I just slowly nodded at him, wanting to tell him what he wants to hear but not able to. I thrust my hips up to his then moved my legs onto his waist, wanting to feel him lose control. Nick groaned as soon as my insides clamped down around him, quickly picking up his pace in and out of me.

"fuck ...... almost there ..... so close baby" he panted, moving his right hand down to my hip and forcing my body up to meet his

I cried out, quickly feeling another orgasm starting deep within me "Nicky....." I cried out

"let it go baby .... I'm there" he gasped, thrusting hard once more deep inside me then I felt him jerk inside me.

I cried out, arching my back and screaming his name as my orgasm crashed through me.

"fuck! Katie!" Nick cried out, bucking his hips into mine then collapsing on top of me.

we both just laid there, trying to get our breathing back under control.

"was it as good as your fantasy?" I asked him with a laugh, kissing the side of his neck.

Nick just groaned into my neck "fuck yeah" he gasped out.

I smiled, running my nails across the back of his neck - knowing how much he loves it when I do that right after he has an orgasm. all of a sudden I thought of something and my fingers froze on his neck

"what's wrong?" he asked lazily, lifting his head to look at me

"tell me you're wearing a condom" was all I said

he nodded "I am baby. you didnt see me put it on, but I did" he said. I breathed a sigh of relief and nodded "I hate wearing one though. I wanna feel all of you"

"I know hon. but I'm bad at remembering to take the pill. I know it's not fair to you, but I just always forget" I said, running my fingers through his hair

"what about the shot? you'd only have to go once every three months" he said

I just looked at him with a grin "oh? and you know all this how?" I teased him.

he actually blushed "everyone knows about the shot honey" he muttered

I smiled at him "is that what you want? you want to stop using condoms?" I asked him

he nodded, slowly pulling out of me then taking the condom off himself and throwing it away "I'm clean baby. I get tested every 6 months. I have to" he said. I just looked at him, my eyes wide. what does he mean - he has to?! "for insurance baby girl. they wont insure me unless I get the test done every 6 months"

I breathed a sigh of relief. "I'll make an appointment this week" I said

he just smiled at me "thanks baby" he said, laying down next to me and putting his head on my chest.

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